I'll get this update quickly. Besides, I realise nobody reads these so it's basically for the few people who stumble here, and wonder what happened to a guy who used to finish a song every few days and comment far more than that.

I'm not feeling too hot with music at the moment. The thing is I'm actually better than before, and I keep running into the feeling like I make sample-quality sounds and do compositions my own inspirations mirror themselves.

However, I get very stressed at ambiguity and uncertainty, and I just can't describe that entirely... When things get unclear it feels like a consistent, silent nail down a blackboard. Unfortunetely this is how I feel with music at the moment. My life is busy already, but now every time I feel creative I have to trudge through folders full of absoluetely terrible noise. I delete what I can but no amount of practice can make it easier to finish a track. The clutter freaks me out...

A large part of me wishes my files would get corrupted because I don't have the strength to wipe them and move on. I don't think I'll ever get something done while my old stuff stares me in the face. It's bad enough the best only synths I really use are GMS and Sytrus. That literally gives me a choice between ugly pads and sparkly pads.

I want to get stuff done, but I can't. Maybe I'll spend a day just being tough on myself, and delete (or at least hide away) the annoying tracks - The old, the desperate, the forever unfinished.

I couldn't possibly go to another hobby, that much is certain. If it was time to drop music, I wouldn't be so annoyed at not making the stuff I want. Plus I'm looking to do music and university, and hopefully as a job. (Now THAT is an update.)

Anyway, for the 2 or so people ever to read this, I'm going to get some inspiration somehow, start afresh a little, and when I do you're going to hear some of the things I'm capable of - Neuro basses, compressed beats and soothing pads. All I want is to hear them in a finished liquid piece...

Peace, H.